90%

So it seems like it's 90% certain that I'm having a girl. She was shy and kept her legs crossed so the doctor was only able to catch glimpses. BUT, my instincts say girl so I figure that makes up for the rest of the 10%.

As of right now (have another ultrasound in a few weeks), I'm having a girl!

One of each :)

My Birthday Wish

A while back, I stopped praying for myself. I still would pray for other people but I some how felt it was wrong to pray for myself.

I did however allow myself to pray/wish for something on my birthdays. It was just my little way of asking the universe, one time a year, for something that was dear to my heart. In September 2006 I got off birth control and asked the universe to make conceiving not too hard on me. I didn't expect it to be easy. I just wanted to have the strength to be able to not become a wreck over it. As most of you know, I was pregnant 2 weeks after getting off birth control. Do I think it was because of my wish? Yes, I do. I've had too many things that I've asked for on my birthday fall into place.

This year, I started preparing for my wish. I'm sure most of you can guess what I asked for. But I did add something else to that. I have a good friend who has been trying for a few years now. She never had any indication of issues and I don't believe they've found anything conclusive in the tests they've been running. My wish was that though I wanted another baby, I really wanted her to have one more. I have my little Z. Even though I want another, I can't say my heart isn't content with him.

This Sunday, I called to tell her the news. I can't tell you how badly I felt. She was so happy for me. I was torn for a while. Should I tell her right away or should I wait a bit. I didn't want her to think, in any way, that I felt I couldn't share with her. So I told her. But in turn, I hope I didn't add a distance to us. I want to be there for her if she needs me. More importantly, I'm really really hoping my birthday wish comes through for her the way it did for me.

By the way, I've started a new blog just about the pregnancy. This is more for me and the baby to share. It's a week by week progress of how I feel, physically and mentally. That doesn't mean I won't post here, but there I'll do an update every week.

Here it is: Mina's Second

My Ticker

I thought this one was beautiful.

Woah

Holy Crap!

Two lines this morning. Seems like I'm pregnant again.

Anyone Else Pregnant Too?

Okay so, J and I decided not to stress with the TTC part 2 since this year we:

• Bought a house
• Got a puppy
• Had his graduation
• Had his graduation party
• Have a toddler going through the terrible twos

It was one of those things that if it happened, it happened. But if it didn't, we weren't going to look a gift horse in the mouth. But is it a gift horse?

We had pretty much decided that since my cycle has been a bit irregular (I've been at 35-41 day cycles since we moved), we wouldn't actually attempt to time the ovulation until after September but probably before the end of the year. So as soon as I make that decision, I get a call from my SIL (sister-in-law) telling me she's prego, by mistake of course. THEN, one of my close friends here who has a freaking one year old got pregnant by mistake too. Both think we should get on with it now. Both feel like raising their babies with my future one. And yes, I'm starting to feel the influence of peer pressure. Due to my irregularity, I'll probably be playing around with ovulation kits and such. Question is, do I go ahead and do it now? Or wait another few months? And at this point, will a few months make that much of a difference? What am I waiting for?

So after typing all those questions, I realize I need to stop waiting around. My heart wants one even if my mind tells me the timing is not perfect. I figure the mind will find a way to work out what my heart wants. It normally has done pretty good on that. Now, to wait for ovulation...

I am a Snapdragon.

I am a Snapdragon What Flower Are You?

This is cute, never heard much about snapdragons. I'll have to check them out!

My Snuggler

So I feel like the concept of children sleeping in the bed with parents is a very controversial one. I think parents that don’t care for it feel the need to disapprove of anyone that does it. Because of this, parents that do it always lament about it. I’ve very rarely met people that think it’s not a big deal.

Let me clarify, I don’t mean that every night the child goes to bed in their parents bed. That they have no bed of their own and have no practice sleeping on their own. Not that I think this is bad, I just have to wonder about how much privacy the parents get for “other” activities. I mean those situations where your child wakes up in the middle of the night and you either bring them into your bed or they toddle their way to mommy and daddy’s bed.

When Z first came home from the hospital, J and I set up a pillow between us and Z slept on this pillow for the first 4 to 6 weeks of his life. Eventually, he moved to the bassinet near my side of the bed. Silly of us, we bought a co-sleeper AFTER he had no space to move in the bassinet. He slept in our room until he was about 9 months. Often, when he would get fussy, I would pull him into the bed. Even times when we felt it was really cold, we would bring him between us and snuggle close to him. My son is a snuggler. He is the most content and happy snuggling. Even now at the age of 2.

When we moved him to his crib, our hearts broke. We knew he needed to get use to his own room and bed. We needed time to be able to relax in our room before we went to bed and he needed to get more sleep then what we got. Still, halfway through the night I walk over to his room, half asleep, and bring him into our bed.

Now, I do want to say, J and I have an ability that allows for us to do this easily. We can sleep anywhere, anytime, in most positions. We can go back to sleep easily as well. Unlike J, I can wake up easily if I know it’s for a few minutes. Some people cannot sleep with their children in the bed. Most children sleep fitfully which really affects the parents sleep. J and I are so comfortable at this point with a family bed, we bought ourselves a King size bed when we moved into our new home. There is so much space in that bed that we’ve woken up to find Z literally horizontal between us.
Yes, Z still comes to our room in the middle of the night. And once we move him to the toddler bed, I expect he’ll walk over on his own. I get something from this experience though. Yesterday I listened to his heartbeat as he slept. I remember listening to his heartbeat when I was 12 weeks pregnant. I don’t think the concept that he once lived in me and is now a walking, breathing (terror) child, will ever feel like anything less then a miracle. As far as J, every time I bring him into our bed, J turns toward him to snuggle, I snuggle in next to him, and we bought hold on to him like he’s the most precious thing ever. Well, I guess because he is.