His own schedule...

So he stayed nice and snug all the days I wanted him to. Now, I want him to come out and he's taking his sweet time...

Unfortunately, my body seems to have other ideas and I have no idea if this is normal.

First off, last week I got a horrible chest cold. Like, seriously horrible. It's been 10 days and I have no voice. It was embarrassing to leave a message at my OB's office this morning because I don't know if they'll be able to understand me. The call to my OB's office is because I realized that I might actually need help other then Tylenol to kick this cold. When you blow your nose and you see a bit of blood mixed in with the snot, you know that it might be something bigger then you thought. I'm not sure what my options are but I'm thinking I might be a bit on the dumb side if I didn't at least make the effort to find out.

As far as my body and the baby, that's it's own set of uncomfortable. Basically since Saturday, I've been having non stop contractions. They've gotten steadily worse as each day has gone by. At best, they feel like someone has something tied around my uterus. I feel them all the way to my back. But they are not labor. There is no consistency to them. Most of the time it just feels like it's that way permanently with bouts of more intensity (which have no consistency either). My doctor mentioned that it might be my body's way of preparing for labor. I guess I'd like to know how long I'll be expected to stay in pain while my body does this. A few more days I can handle. If they tell me it can potentially be a few weeks I'll cry. This is not discomfort. This is constant contractions.

Anyway, I have an induction set for June 11th as of now. So if he doesn't come out on his own before then (I really wanted him to come out on his own before then), it'll be a definite thing then.

My parents also arrived this Friday. They'll be staying with us for a month to help out. I actually adore having them around and am trying to get into the groove of not really worrying about entertaining them. I just feel badly because if it does take a few more weeks, they'll basically be hanging out at my house trying to pass time til the baby comes. Being impatient on my own is bad enough. Being impatient with them is even harder. And of course the contractions are making me cranky so that doesn't help much either. Thankfully my brother will be arriving on Wednesday so he can entertain them for a few days.

That's basically it with me and my frustrations. On a good note though, my blood sugar seems to be regulating. I've "heard" that as you get closer to the time, your body lets off more of the hormone that messes with your blood sugar and your body starts heading back toward normal. I've had reduce my insulin doses already a few times in the past 4 or 5 days. Hopefully closer to the time means a few days and not a few weeks :P

Labor Countdown?

I had my 36th week doctor's appointment yesterday and it seems that my doctor thinks it's best that I don't work past Friday of this week at the office. Thankfully, I saw this coming and spoke to my manager. She's kindly offered to allow me to work from home for a couple of weeks until I actually have the baby.

So it seems that as of yesterday, I was already 3 cm dilated and 70% effaced. I was surprised to hear about the 3 cm since 4 cm is considered active labor. My MIL was more concerned about the fact that I was 70% effaced already. Who knows how long I'll walk around like this. I wouldn't mind if the baby waited at least til next weekend (or after) so my parents will be around and J's birthday will have gone by. Damn it, I want both his parents to be 30 when he's born. I have given up on the idea of a June baby though. He'll come when he needs to come.

In case anyone is wondering, he's considered a very healthy size and my time is considered just fine. He'll be 6.5 pounds approximately by the end of this week and if he's triggering my body's readiness, he's obviously ready and waiting to pop out on his own. It's kinda cute how ecstatic my doctors are with my body's progress. Even though they decided to induce me by my due date, it's a lot more ideal for the baby and delivery as a whole if I go into labor naturally before then.

Anyway, I may have more time to update starting next week when I actually am working from home. But then again, I may not have much to say. No worries though, you'll be updated when the baby actually pops out very soon.

His Timing...

So this past Friday, I just had what will probably be my last ultrasound. My little boy is already about 5.5 pounds and is considered safe to be born. At this point, he probably wouldn’t need to spend much time if any at all in NICU. He also already has a head of hair on him. I couldn’t determine how much since the pictures at this point are really fuzzy (in case anyone is curious, the best pictures are seriously at 20 weeks and then they’re just less and less clear). He made the ultrasound technician’s life a bit difficult by constantly trying to punch and kick the monitor off my belly. I don’t think he cared for the pressure much.

The only “OMG” incident which is not really an “OMG” incident is that my cervix is already a bit shorter (effaced) then expected for being 34 weeks (last week). In some ways, that’s a really good thing because that means I’ll be able to most likely avoid a c-section. The draw back to it which is not really a “bad” thing is that he can possibly come earlier then my planned 39th week induction. This might throw off plans that his grandparents had for being here as well as his father had for his “last minute” stuff. But hey, one thing this baby has not made a secret of is that he’s in a rush. He was in a rush to be conceived and he’s been measuring a week ahead at every ultrasound I have had. Enough to be ahead but not enough to concern anyone.

The one thing I am a bit concerned with is my doctor telling me to stop working earlier then planned. If he is coming early I definitely want to stop earlier. But at the same time it is money to think about. I just don’t want to be stuck at home for a long period of time only to have him take his time. But I guess that’s the beauty of childbirth. You really just have to go with the flow because you don’t have too many options.

Until then, I’ll just hang out here being a bit more uncomfortable everyday. Thankfully he’s worth it.

When does the fear go away?

So I'm 34 weeks now and I'm still putting off doing the last of my shopping for the baby. Not because I'm lazy but because I'm scared. I still worry that something will happen. Then I realize that if something did, the last thing I'd be worried about is the last minute shopping that I had done. Especially considering the fact that his FURNITURE is now setup in his room.

He's already my child, why can't I just let the fear go?