Post of Updates

It’s been a while. A long while since I posted. I have been feeling a bit like blogging again but I can’t say for sure that I’ll really stick around. To be honest, I’m not sure if anyone checks this site anymore anyway. Just in case though, I’ll post an update.

My son Z just turned one earlier this month. I adore him to pieces but I find that motherhood was a bit tougher then I anticipated. As of right now, I don’t know if I could handle another child. Thankfully, I don’t have to make that decision at the moment.

There have been about 4 couples that are fairly close to us that have split up (or are on their way to) in the past year. One was a “finally!” The other two were a “Really? That’s too bad since there’s kids involved.” And the last is a complete smack in the face. A couple with 3 children and have been married for 17 years. It hits me harder sometimes because things have been tough with J. We’re adjusting to life with a baby. We’re learning now to be selfish with him and each other. Or at least, I think we need to learn that. I know in my heart that it’ll pass and we’ll be fine. But sometimes, it just gets scary when you hear about other’s lives. And sometimes, I just want to make sure we try harder to make sure we get no where near the point the others are at.

I’m working and actually enjoying my current project though I’m cognizant of the fact that I do want a career I can take a bit more seriously. I don’t want it to be the primary focus of my life. But I want to be valued a bit more then I feel here. Not sure how or when I’ll pull it off with a baby though. Maybe when he gets a bit older.

We’re taking our first family “vacation” together this summer. We’re off to San Francisco for 10 days. I’m a bit concerned with how things will be traveling with a toddler. I’m also concerned that our frustration with the situation will come out with more bickering. But hopefully things will work out okay.

That’s about it for now. Hopefully I’ll have the time and the drive to post random posts. Meanwhile, I’ve been reading tons of trashy romance novels!